Another left, another right & I'm still lost,
My mind took me to many times and places.
What if i told you I'm not ready to bear this cost?
When was it that i lost you in pieces?
I've been shattered for the last time,
Since you swore to never leave me for i made you happy.
But you treated me like a neglected penny and dime,
For your empty promises were legit crappy.
How could you be so gauche and promiscuous?
You said i was perfect but lacked libido,
It was so obvious for you to be oblivious,
I believe "so few come and don't go".
You called me crazy, psycho and paranoid,
When i acted like it while begging for your loyalty.
You checking out on girls was something i failed to avoid,
In every social gathering, club or party!
Was i being too servile to you as i always complied?
Even for the things you were insinuating.
I knew your so called feelings for me had died,
When i waited days for your call and my phone to ring.
Whether to be with you or not was the worst and biggest dilemma,
When all that remained was rain, tear drops and thunder.
Was our love or you just an enigma?
I couldn't help but always wonder.
I wanted something, someone permanent and stable,
Not just some terrible lesson to learn.
Tell me, were you that unable?
Why then leave the gifts and pics with me to burn?
When you chose to walk out,
After struggling and earning my trust.
One by one, confirming all my "silly doubts",
Leaving my heart filled with misery & covered with dust.
Believing you're worth the risk i gave my 100 percent,
Finding it honorable to have my heart broken by you.
I was a fool to be that naive, forgiving and decent,
Little did i guess it'd be this soon out of the blue.
Even after knowing what a dick you are,
Getting rid of such toxic shit, shouldn't i be glad?
Instead, i still look for you at every drinking bar,
God knows why do i feel so hollow and sad.
Because, i gave my all and loved you,
When you spat that true love never dies!
Then why was it so hard to stick to your words like a glue?
Never wanted to stay and fix upon your filthy lies!
Second and last chances for you never seemed to cease,
For they say never regret anything that made you smile.
You were the only one i ever wanted to please,
Should have known your oaths were breakable and fragile.
I knew for you ignorance is bliss,
But your world was where i wanted to belong.
I knew in the end you would do this,
But for the first time in my life i wanted to be WRONG!