By Nidhi Hemani
Mom tells me she is going to head out;
To grab some veggies and a packet of bread;
Hearing this, I visualize the moment which I dread.
I don't wanna be left alone in bed,
But I choose to keep my thoughts left unsaid.
Thinking of being all alone makes me scared;
'Coz then they will get a chance to haunt me till my eyes bled!
They smirk as they come to know that I will be alone;
I start to panic thinking about my gravestone!
They are monsters who'll eat me alive;
I'm petrified thinking how will I survive!!
Initially they were just a black dot;
Gradually they have turned mammoth!!
They corner me making me choke;
They fill my life with disgust;
They assault me leaving my soul broken;
They are so relieved watching me ache;
They punish me for some unknown mistake!
Remember how we were taught about those monsters;
Large in size, with such an ugly face;
They would bite them, tear them;
Making people take their own lives.
Well these are no different;
Today, they have a sophisticated name;
People call these monsters, depression;
Some also opine they are just lack of expression!
People say there's nothing like depression!
This is just some kind of misconception!
There is nothing like mental illness;
Being mentally ill raises a question;
"Why are you unnecessarily craving for attention?"
These demons keep growing bigger and bigger;
Although they are inside my head, I can see those silhouettes coming closer and closer;
Just as I thought I took my last breath;
Mom arrived and she got worried looking at me;
I heaved a sigh of relief!
I thought I just visualized my death!
My mom held my sweaty hands;
I told her please don't misunderstand!
I broke into her arms;
I started to unfold each layer;
It went on, layers after layers;
After I was finished, my mom sang a little prayer!
Thanking God for not letting me in a pool of those thoughts;
Seeing her helping me, made me feel relieved a lot!
Days passed;
Months passed;
Those demons who once were mammoth;
Started appearing again just a black dot!