By- Tanishi Jaiswal
Loneliness is a feeling difficult to express,
Others may thing that your life is a mess and full of stress,
But in real loneliness is an emotion; is a phase,
When you experience it you will not be amazed.
Youngsters hangout, go out for dates and parties and I spend my time alone, reading a novel in my room.
If one of them see me like this they will find me as a doom.
They don't know the feeling that I feel,
They don't know my problems and how I deal.
Finally one day I decided to break this loneliness and interact with other people.
I was nervous, because this sudden change was not simple.
I wanted to explore something new, so I decided to try at least.
I went for a school reunion, many boys and girls were having fun and enjoying the feast.
I entered with a bright smile on my face,
Because I was confident that this time I will ace.
I met my classmates they were surprised to see me because I looked different.
In midst of music, drinks and young people I was still looking for real contentment.
I was surrounded by many people, some were my friends and some were acquaintances.
There was a guy with whom I exchanged glances.
And Flashes started coming in my mind,
Although he was a past that I have left behind.
He made me believe in friendship and love,
In my priority list he was always above.
He was not only a lover but also my best friend
But this love story had a painful end.
He was the one who made me feel so lonely, when he left me.
Living with a broken heart was not easy.
He broke my trust, he had no feeling of love but only lust.
He was the one who cheated;
I felt my emotions have been defeated.
To trust someone again became difficult for me and so I separated myself from everyone,
And lived a lonely life which had no enjoyment or fun.
I decided to separate myself from loneliness,
I wanted to find a place better than this emptiness.
I interacted with many people and had fun,
Because I wanted to show that I have changed and I am not the same one.
Many people liked the new me, and my past was jealous from my present;
But still I had a feeling of discontent.
Finally the DJ played a romantic song,
All the high school sweethearts danced along.
I was standing there alone for a while and tried to keep up my smile.
I felt unrest that nests a hollowness for I had no where to go;
I was lost in my thoughts and started to feel low.
Amidst everyone, the same feelings developed of loneliness,
But still I am in search of a place better than this emptiness.
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This poem has been published in the book 'The Last Flower Of Spring'. Buy the paperback copy on Amazon: https://tinyurl.com/y9sydnxn